Both. [ It was a heavy word, and he glared off into the distance, his chest clenching painfully. ]
I get - I get wanting to give it to the Belt. I do. I wanted to give it to Mars, before we - before all that shit happened. So I get the urge. But they talked me down, and they were right to do it, and she saw what happened with it--
[Bobbie lets out a breath, then reaches out to touch his shoulder gently.]
Yeah, it wasn't a great call. I'd wipe that shit from the system if I could, but we're all stuck with it. Chrisjen is trying to get a sample for Earth, and I'm sure someone from the OPA would have gotten their hands on it somehow. Are you more upset she lied to you about it?
I am pissed. [ It takes a lot, to get him angry, but he's not going to deny that he is. ] I'm pissed as all hell.
She decided she knew better than any of the rest of us, told us she destroyed it when she didn't, and then lied about what she did with it for months. Of course I'm pissed.
[She knows he's pissed—she's never seen him this angry, but he's also hurt, and she thinks that might be the bigger thing. Bobbie reaches for his hand, taking it gently, and giving him enough wiggle room to pull away if he wants.]
You don't have to do anything yet. Give yourself a little time to process it.
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I get - I get wanting to give it to the Belt. I do. I wanted to give it to Mars, before we - before all that shit happened. So I get the urge. But they talked me down, and they were right to do it, and she saw what happened with it--
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Yeah, it wasn't a great call. I'd wipe that shit from the system if I could, but we're all stuck with it. Chrisjen is trying to get a sample for Earth, and I'm sure someone from the OPA would have gotten their hands on it somehow. Are you more upset she lied to you about it?
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I don't get it, Gunny. What the hell did she think I was gonna do about it, to not even bother tellin' me when we've been trapped here for months...?
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[That seems obvious enough to her.]
Maybe she was afraid it would destroy your friendship.
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She decided she knew better than any of the rest of us, told us she destroyed it when she didn't, and then lied about what she did with it for months. Of course I'm pissed.
And I - I don't know what to do about it.
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You don't have to do anything yet. Give yourself a little time to process it.
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... Yeah. I guess. Not sure what in the hell I'm gonna come up with later that I ain't right now, but -
I ain't gonna make things worse, if I can help it.
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Hey, you'd be surprised. Things might seem clearer when you've had time to calm down.
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[ He clicked his tongue, gave her hand another squeeze, and let go. ]
We'll see. At the moment every time I start tryin' to think about it, I just make myself mad all over again.